Saturday, April 30, 2005
i dunno where to start frm...i ponned sch on thurs...spent the whole day cleaning my table and stuff...but in actual fact i guess i was juz trying to think abt wad happened on wed...till today...i keep having flashbacks of my game on wed...yea its easy to get over it...but not forget....it juz seemed too familiar to last yr...and i rem. i told myself tt wadeva happened last yr...would b in the past and would neva happened again...but after i stepped into the court and Jia gave me a hug and said...no hard feelings...it juz all came back to me...yea as wad Madam and shums said today...i guess i had a mental block...of all matches in my life...my 2nd last match for intersch ever...
someone told me "SC girls can't take losing"...yea i guess to a certain extent i agree...i haf no comments
to think tml's the last sch training i'm ever gonna haf in my life...feels totally diff. frm sec4...difference is...in sec4...it ended a happy but tearful affair...but this time...more of a sad kind of tearful affair.
anyway after our so called "training" today...went town with Fong and Joel...got dragged by Mich to say hi to the whole SC squash team at swensons...then at 10 plus Fong and i juz strolled down to cine to waste time while waiting for my dad...and somehow we saw Iris and Zhen...so we juz sat in the food court talking till 11...
still confused and all..but i guess He has a plan for us...
Juannnn [12:38 AM]
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
sayless...
realli wanna thank those of u who came down to support AC today...i'm sorri i let all of u down...thx to Gerald esp. for his lil surprise...ok mayb it was meant to be big...but yea....to Auntie Kar Foon Paul and Ian too...
we trusted in God...He gave us the lineup we were all hoping for...mayb it wasn't the best...but one of the best we could get already...our top 3 meeting their bottom 3...but somehow i guess it wasn't meant to be...
God gave Shums this verse which contained " i will give u Gold instead of Bronze"...though we din expect much frm it concerning today's match, it left me guessing wad He meant...season's coming to an end...so wad could it be?...yea andi guess Tim Chan juz enlightened me...Gold probably meant in terms of frenship...anyways...thx Tim...for cheering me up today...to think i was the one doing the cheering up yest...haha
i guess God's will is not always wad u wan or expect it to be...but sth much more, much greater in the future...season's coming to and end nx week...another chapter of squash closed...for gd? i'm not sure. i dun wan it to end...mayb my passion for the game isn't tt strong anymore, but it has realli become a part of my life these few yrs...
Juannnn [11:06 PM]
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
K-O
after a whole afternooon of sleep plus an "early" night yest...i still feel like sleeping!. i tink after my 3rd 4th or finals...i'll juz sleeep non stop b4 i get back to my books again....
i was pretty zonked out yest...and confused...the semis tml juz keeps ringing in my head...but somehow i juz flipped to my bible and i got this verse:
"Pay attention, Job, and listen to me; be silent, and I will Speak. If you have anything to say, answer mel speak up, for i want you to be cleared. But if not, then listen to me; be silent, and I will teach you wisdom" - Job 33:31-33
bio test tml...apparently OPEN BOOK....but our OPEN BOOK = A5 CARD...so interesting la...when i'm let off 10.30am do u tink i'll even haf the concentration to study and sit for the test...sigh.
k better go fill tt CARD up...hope by God's grace we'll get a super gd lineup against RJC tml...:)
Juannnn [7:59 PM]
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Monday, April 25, 2005
still popping...
tiring few days...now the details...haha
woke up at the crazy time of 6.30am on Sat...to chiong to sch at 8am...for "training"...yea i did all 8 sets of court sprints myself and stuff...b4 rushing to shower at 9 plus then meeting XH and Vic for Bio SPA...when i got a call frm Shums saying i left my calculator at the courts...-_-
reached church super early...apparently to meet Ah Ma nd Ah Pek for lunch...b4 Ah Ma happily msged and said she's eaten...grrr. so Mel and i went to coffeeshop for lunch with Ah Pek and Rach...
rest of the afternooon juz spent rehearsing our songs again and again...b4 we all sat in one area praying for a super long time...ppl were starting to stream in and stuffs...
POP went on fine...with Josh's games...and Ah Ma pulling me to tables to talk to ppl. haha...the musicians were quite slack i guess...we had no jobs then...but super nervous...
well Rach Mel Ian and i were helping Josh try to act like a bimbo...for his part later on... and i found out tt my couz is actually a closet bimbo? haha. how amusing...but last minute lessons do pay off...Josh did damn well man!...so chio...figure look so nice in Shu's skirt...plus heels...hmmm.
super nervous b4 going on to play...and Yan Leen was juz trying to get her "don't leave me hanging" hahah...i even kinda forgot how superman intro sounds like...but by
its amazing seeing how God works thru us...juz one month ago...we started POP frm nth...all the leaders were unsure if we were able to pull this off...but God answered our prayers...esp. abt the gd weather. yea it was super humid and hot...but no rain! haha. seeing how all the guests juz stood up and started singing to the last song STILL juz boosted everyone's spirits. its as though u could see God working right in front of u...
yea SJC folks came...thx forcoming to support us...and lending us ur keyboard...:)
so half of YE or so ended up in clementi macs at 11pm for supper...all hot tired but happy...:)
so sad i missed Cheryl's b-day party...real sorry girl...i'll go for it nx yr k...haha meet up sooon...
met Sing Ying for dinner b4 going for Sound of Music yest...it was damn gd...revived my childhood memories...haha...i think i watched the tape 20 times at least...
realli tired out frm the last few days of activities...today had JJC match...amusing thing was...SRJC was waiting and waiting for HCJC...and at 2pm...onli one player was there...all of us were thinking.. wah! if HC doens't come...and SR gets a walkover...we'll be back at level ground again...meaning we might not hafta play RJC at the semis...haha but i guess it was not to be...they all appeared shortly after 2...:p...
after training 3 sets of sprints...already left me half dead...plus two games...i think i'm gonna be knocked out by 11 tonight...so stress! wed bio test and RJC semis...zzz zzz... time to start studying again...
Juannnn [8:53 PM]
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Sunday, April 24, 2005
POP POP POP!!!
POP was a hit!!!...Paul and Jon realli did a super gd job...and all the departments too...esp. the Logs team...without them this whole thing wouldn't even run this smoothly...most importantly...its God who made all these possible...k i'm tired...more report on POP tml. haha.
Juannnn [12:45 AM]
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
defeated but not defeated.
we may haf lost by scores..but i'm really proud of the AC guys team...though losing...but they juz fought and pressed on thru every single pt...neva at any pt giving up. and they realli played damn well today...yea God may haf disappointed us, but we know tt he has something better in store.
came down with flu today...all thx to Tan Siew Chi...esp. the fact tt she's frm RJC. hahaha...and my RJC semis are nx wed...
joel: thx for helping me...shall go haagen daaz support u one of these days...rem. to treat me . haha...
zzz...
Juannnn [10:53 PM]
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Monday, April 18, 2005
chariots of fire...
Pop prac's gone damn smoothly...and everythin's falling into place...by God's grace...juz pray for all the diff. departments...
went to sch for 2 lessons today...b4 going off for match with MJC...my score today 27-0...and i tink i juz realised sth else...Mdm was juz telling us abt mental stimulation...i realised tt if u set a realistic goal...its attainable...the previous match i juz went in and played...juz ended up making mistakes and giving away package pts. after the match we did sprints again...8 sets this time...but i'm realli encouraged tt we're working as a team together...though i know some of us juz hate running to the core...but we still endure the torture and do it. 8 more days to go...time is running out real fast.
Zhen Fong Mich and i went Hardrock for 50% dessert after tt...haha 5 bucks for this HUGE brownie...left 3 of us dying at the table...plus Zhen with her apple cobbler with LOADS of whipped cream. courtesy of three of us. haha.
met Dav at city hall to roam arnd again...long time since i caught up with him..
tml's B Div Finals...SC vs RGS...i hope all goes well for them...clinching the gold 3 rys running isn't tt simple after all...we're always one step away when we get a lil too complacent and we slip.
zzz...
Juannnn [11:53 PM]
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
dead beat.
seriously a damn tiring day...i juz felt like sleeping the whole day. managed to finish all outstanding tutorials during free period b4 all of us fell asleep in rm6.11 and suddenly J1s juz came barging in for nx lesson.
chem prac was another smelly session...stinky organic compounds. its like the 2nd time in four yrs i smelt ammonia. it was juz practically oozing into my nose...frm the sink. argh`
training...Ah Tan juz talked to us abt why we lost and stuff and how we haf 2 weeks to catch up...a LOT. i see a lot of physical in store for us for the nx 9 trainings. yea we did 5 sets of one minute 20 lap court sprints plus 5 sets of footwork!. the footwork was seriously a killer man. i can hardly walk nor bend now la...
then i rushed to church for PoP prac...but all went well :)...God works wonders man...without the singers we still managed to produce music. haha.
juz so super tired now...and theres still training and pop tml...
the Hwa Chong match did teach me some stuff:
1) not to underestimate ur opponent
2) not to slack and train hard frm the start. no discounts nor bargains.
3) when u meet a retarded referee make the best out of ur plight. but dun lose ur sportsmanship.
4) understanding how the whole team's in it together. and not as individuals.
5) how to play such tt u haf no regrets, even if its losing
most importantly...
how winning is not important. but the lessons u haf learnt. and how u look towards the future
Juannnn [12:05 AM]
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Friday, April 15, 2005
sorri...
to ZP(if u read this): erm. sorri for wadeva happened this morning...
dun realli know wad got into me...but yea i was quite pissed...
anyways...after sch...juz went city hall to meet Sarah and Ian and Sarah was LATE as USUAL. haha. Managed to get some pressies...and Ian got his black pants damn fast somehow. duringthe time Sarah was late.
music lesson was never this happy...i dunno. i finally find tt i haf interest in this exam piece...and plus Mrs Boo was full of farnie crap tonight. like how she found out her maid had been using her foot to wash her dog's and cat's dinner plates...and how the maid managed to shower both the dog and cat in 10 mins when the maid took dman long to shower herself.
then i received a call frm Nick all the way frm Tekong...haha...where apparently they're bullying the sergeant. and in the background all u hear is noises and suddenly the sergeant shouting...u all dare to do again u all will DIE! haha. damn amusing.
PoP prac tml again...pray tt all goes well...its gonna be a success and YE wll increase in numbers!...:)
Juannnn [12:08 AM]
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
fight on AC!.
won my match today...but we lost 3-2 overall...though there are some uncertainties i'm not v. happy abt..but i guess its over already and we should look forward to the RJC match in 2 weeks. juz tt its not in the finals but the semis this time...sense of de javu...wad happened last yr...juz wad happened last yr was not within our control...the fact tt we met RJC in the semis last yr...but this yr it is...
everythin happens for a purpose...though we din win...but i realli felt the team spirit in both our guys and girls team today...we may haf come frm diff. sec schs. but finally we're kinda playing as one...supporting each other in every other way...( which includes the fact tt the guys pulled a lot of toilet paper for the girls to wipe our tears off). haha... the feeling's diff.
i guess its God's way of bringing the team together...and also to give us a wake up call to buck up and train hard for the nx two weeks. take the nx match as a 2nd chance given to us...
feeling rather down...not onli coz of inter sch..but many other things...
meeting Sarah and Ian tml to go b-day present plus some black shirt and pants shopping. sorri shu. u'll get urs sooon enuff. haha. blame it on Sarah!.
sometimes in life...wad u wan may not be...but somehow u juz get a better deal in the end...coz God is always there...
Juannnn [10:08 PM]
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
...
suddenly sch seems to end so early ever since season started...sch ended at 1.10 today...supposedly...act. its PE at 3.10 but since i'm excused...so XH, Shivali, Ian and Shirin juz went to squash courts and played as well...everythin was juz fine. yea till Fong XH and I realised the stupid door jammed and three of us were trapped in the glass court -_-. so Ian came along and we juz banged an knocked the knob. but i guess it din help much. haha. and Wayne came along and did the same stuff, finally saying he'll get the keys. but somehow he went to call Piggy instead. and when Piggy couldn't find any sol. he juz said. aiya use the squash banner to pull all of them up? to the 2nd level.
u would think being stuck in the court would cause u to want to get out. since we dun wanna break our legs climbing out. but XH was juz so happy. coz it was already 3 and PE was at 3.10. but it was not to be...since the gym auntie came and the keys juz unlocked the lock. apparently we banged so hard. the lock which was jammed became the usual "locked" mode. haha.
though there has been some unhappiness within the team due to external or internal factors, i guess everythin's back to normal. in fact i tink we'remore hyped up coz tml's Hc match...
hope tml when i blog at this time. it'll be gd news. :)
Juannnn [10:31 PM]
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Monday, April 11, 2005
disappointment?
i tink i learnt sth real important on friday. anger has a lot of consequences. probably both mentally and physically. wads done can't be undone. but i guess its a lesson for me...
yea i read Ben's blog...perhaps i'm part of the big disappointment. but perhaps i'm not. but i found wad he said to be so true...but i guess everyone being tired, lethargic, stressed...we juz overlooked wad we actually knew. that our focus was God. not the quality of the music.
somehow i believed frm the start tt with Faith...outdoors would b a success because we're doing it for God. though Sat's prac seemed to show otherwise. the fact tt Auntie Kar Foon got a "confirmation" on Sunday abt going ahead with PoP on the 23rd juz made my faith in Him increase. yea the music may not be as gd as we want it to be...but God will achieve His purpose.
HCJC match's on Wed...i doubt i can sleep tml night. why? i realli dunno. nth seems to haf any effect on my emotions or thoughts these few days...can't realli conc. in class either...loads of things going on...i seriously haf no time man. haha...anyways...happy b-day to Kim...pre b-day to Gerald, Shir, Mark, Cass and Fiona. how scary tt u guys haf b-day on 6 consecutive days.
back to writing cards...:)
"A patient man has great understanding, but a quick-tempered man displays folly" -Proverbs14:29
Juannnn [11:19 PM]
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
dunno wad to say...
played SRJC today...won 5-0...but i seriously played damn badly...bad start for season...dunno wad to do...went to church after for POP prac...
to all those at prac:...wanna apologise.e.e...for wadeva i've caused...and for disrupting everythin...
to Rach:...sorri and i still love ya!(amazingly while i'm writing this i got ur msg...)...:p
i guess Ben's right...all we're doing its all for serving God...so we should juz haf faith in him and let him take control...
really tired...
Juannnn [12:17 AM]
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
in the midst...
not much to blog abt these few days...or more like i forgot...coz my stupid internet is conking out...anyways AC won against TPJC on Mon....5-0...:)...ended at 3 plus so Fong and i ended up going to Great World...to shop and eat...haha.
yest had combine schs match...played Kar Yen...obviously i lost...hahaha...but i'm quite glad it wasn't a trashing...b4 tt went to Ayer Rajar to do CIP...i tink i finally realised the true meaning of why i'm doing this...CIP used to be a chore...a compulsory thing tt required u to clock at least 6 hours...yea mayb i was thinking like tt the last 2 times i went there...since we were made to send out flyers and do gardening....but yest i got the chance to tutor the kids, play with them...and i realli did enjoy it thoroughly...the girl i tutored was Raeesa...and juz tt 1 hour plus i spent with her...i got to know wad she thought...and stuffs...how her family's like...though superficial but how often do u get to hear all these frm a pri3 kid...the boys were super naughty though...and there was this pair who were damn cute...one chubby girl and one boy...they juz started "frenly fighting" after we left the room and the teacher went...how come the room seems like Hell juz broke loose?!...and the girl calls the guy lau sai. haha...
had to run out frm sch again...since the guard stupidly onli lets us off at 1.10...one whole group of us ended sch at 12.30 were all stuck at the gate...met auntie kar fooon and paul and gerald for lunch...b4 practising my piano in church...then got dragged to SAJC by Sarah teo!!!. made me change into her poser ONCE A SAINT ALWAYS A SAINT SHIRT with the AC sch skirt...b4 i walked into SAJC and found i was getting wierd stares with Debra who also changed...i finally changed back to uniform. -_-.
LIFE concert was gd...the band was power man...and Bird Nest Sarah juz kept going on abt the CUTE DRUMMER. hahaha...Pang Sai was a total _____(fill wadeva) today...serves u right! particularly liked this girl's testimonial...it may seem v. normal...abt non-christian parents and how they came to know God...but i found her story realli touching coz i could feel it came frm her heart...wadeva she felt and everythin...but one thing she said is v true..."how many youths find it easy putting their pride aside to apologise to their parents or whoever when they've done sth wrong"...the pastor's msg was gd as well...abt salvation...how the most important thing is the salvation of ur soul...but he's realli quite amusing...with his "ring bear" joke...
tml's our 2nd match against SRJC...after tt...POP prac again!...time's running out...but i guess eveything's going fine so far...and i haf faith that He'll make sure everythin runs smoothly :).
Juannnn [11:07 PM]
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
getting e jitters...
tml's the first match of season...i wonder if i can sleeep tonight... a lot of things in my mind now...my life's practically engulfed in three things now...STUDIES SQUASH CHURCH...mayb a lil SOCIAL haha. i'm tired...happy??? mayb...to a certain extent...haha reminds me of wad Shai asked me a few days back...he said are u happy... then i said mayb...and he said theres onli yes or no. no mayb. a question's been posed to me quite a few times the last few weeks...Will u continue squash after this season...sec sch to jc...it seemed like it was a routine...juz continuing with it...my future seems so vague...whether i can even make it to uni....and stuffs...but somehow by His grace i've made it this far... today's sermon was abt trusting God...abt how Faith isn't seeing to believe but more of juz believing... Where Truths turn out to be stranger than fiction... Where random actions changes lives rapidly... - somewhere on CNA.
Juannnn [11:25 PM]
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P-A-I-N...
today's a super long draggy day...wonder why sometimes 24 hours seem so short but at other times it juz takes forever. bio SPA was juz like tt...as usual...but going to sch so early for a 1 hour exam is so retarded...
met Mum at Novena square after tt for some shopping aimlessly arnd...b4 heading to YCK for training at 2...YCK was filled with chattering and stuffs....and its so HOT lar!....half raining half not...the whole place so humid...and my eye mask juz kept fogging up...even without i felt like i was in a sauna. anyway practically shattered my knee...see wad i mean by bad signs. haha... stretching for a drop and my left foot slipped...and i fell landing on one knee...Mr Tan juz happily asked...Eh! is the FLoor OK. -_-.
went to Junction 8 for dinner with Fong Iris and Zhen...b4 rushing to church for music prac...i guess we did utilise our time quite well...haha...4 hours...and we finished 2 new songs including one chinese and revised all the old...:)...while Ivan Pang Sai and Mel Png came to stone or help. haha...chinese songs are damn irritating...its like ringing in my head now...but yet the tune's juz so...grrr...
while those three plus gerald and yan leen went to play pool after tt...at 10pm...how LATE la...Rach and i went Macs for foood. haha...so shagged now lars....ZZZ.
Juannnn [12:44 AM]
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Friday, April 01, 2005
im' bored...tired...and stressed.
it was great meeting Lynn and Cheryl plus Sam on wed again...haha for of all things the AC band concert...but b4 tt it was crazy walking and window shopping with Lynn...b4 we met the other two and went to Cafe Cartel for this huge dinner...ok it wasn't tt much...but we were realli realli full...city hall was juz packed with ACJC...i to my surprise. SCGS too. haha. Band concert was ok i guess...but i was realli tired tt day...and Cheryl was nodding off......but Phantom of the Opera was gd...:)
thurs was juz a bore...FOUR periods of GP...all abt application question...i seriously almost died. in fact i was so tired yest i fell asleep during bio lec right in front of Mr Loo...not a single soul frm band tt i know came to sch lars...poor things...dun get an official break frm their concert the night b4...
i finally went for mass PE today...but the physical was retarded lar...we had to carry each other's legs for us to do push ups...it was a total toture...and while Mr Loo was talking seriously abt neurones...a scream rang in the midst of where my class was seated...frm Hui Boon...apparently there was a worm on her. and she flicked it onto Shirin. caused quite a commotion...haha...
anyways...Chem SPA is officially OVER...so our chem pracs are basically playing arnd with organic chem stuffs...which was quite fun...since Mdm wasn't there for the first period...and the relief din know we werent supposed to combut hexane and cyclohexane ourselves...which almost caused Shirin and Ian's sink to catch fire...coz Ian's crucible juz went into flames...and he threw it into the sink where there was excess cyclohexane being disposed of.
but the smell in lab was unbearable...as u get nearer to the teacher's bench where the actual reagents are placed...it juz floods ur whole brain and makes u dizzy...smelling neither sweet nor sour...like an alcohol but even more dense...haha...and finally i reached the esterification experiment...i tot notes says esters are sweet smelling...so Shivali and i happily went to prepare it...but right after...Xiaohui shoved the whole beaker under my nose to smell...and i juz choked.
i guess training's getting better...though Mr Tan seems a lil cold...i think he juz doesnt' know how we're gonna react towards him...sometimes i realli dunno whether to forgive him and smile and be nice or juz remain like tt...not talking unless v. necessary...but i tink i'm choosing the former...without knowing it myself...i seriously felt super lost when he left...for tt few trainings...i juz din haf an aim...
and we got our jerseys! haha...at least my attire isnt screwed up this yr...esp. when its an adidas skirt and top...the last time SC bought Fila skirts...it was juz so terrible to run in...so we spent a whole lot of time in the toilet trying out the sizes and stuffs...
training never stretched till so late b4...though i dun feeel like i trained a lot...but there is tt sense of satisfaction...considering our first match is on Monday...season's realli starting...like in 2 days...HCJC in a week and a half...we realli dun haf time to get cold feet now...but it juz seems too coincidental...my racket strings juz burst....juz like last yr...2 days b4 the RJC semi finals...but i broke my racket then...and the nx problem is...my Bro has a match on Monday too...but his is at Kallang and mine at YCK...so how can one racket be at two places...i wonder...plus kinda sprained my wrist again...i dunno...but God is in control :)...i guess most of my team learnt a lesson how to trust him already...
mayb i am thankful tt AC is a methodist sch...how many schs actually haf their teams and teachers come together and pray b4 a match...we've done the hard work during the yr...and on tt day itself its time to commit the rest to Him...
hope the POP prac tml goes well...juz pray tt He'll work thru us to glorify his name...and bring more GB and BB ppl into Ye...:)
God does wonders...
Juannnn [11:36 PM]
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